Dear Lord, I woke up this morning just thinking about all You spoke to me last night. I see how over the years You have been preparing me to “get” this understanding of how our whole life has to be wrapped up in a growing relationship with You. I think I am beginning to understand about being “one,” united in love. I am just so excited to really go deeper with You, and to share what I have learned with others who might want to go beyond the “shorter shorter catechism!”
But Lord, help me not to be scornful and self-righteous, because the few things that I know and any wisdom I have gained, is all from You. All along the way, “I” have gotten puffed up and shallow and have slowed Your process. I see that now. Forgive me, dear Lord. All along the journey there were road signs : Your voice, Your word, Your Son, Your people, good books, circumstances, all clearly proclaiming Your truth. And yet so often I chose to go blindly along on “my” way, never lifting my eyes to focus on You alone.
Its seems that I need to be hit on the head over and over and over before I start to “get it.” Thank You for the struggles of the past years that forced me to look beyond myself and “my knowledge” for Your help. Thank You for teaching me that “I” am not capable, responsible, and so on, not truly. In all things, even the seemingly easy things, I need You! Being Christ-like is not just for crisis moments. It has to envelop my total life and being, always, in all things! Thank You!
… Don’t rush, My child. This work is My work. I am using you, but you must let Me do it, through you, in My time and plan. It’s all about Me. It must be My work. Just rest.
It’s all under control. My timing is coming. I am preparing you. It’s a process, child.
Let Me work it out – in your life, yes, but also in the lives of others I am already bringing together into a bond of desire and maturity, to one day be truly submitted together before Me. Then I can take you all, united in one body under the Lordship of My Son, Jesus Christ, and use you all, My church, to once again, like the first disciples, turn the world upside-down.
Don’t panic. You are responsible and committed, and that is good. But always, at all times, work only in My flow, My direction, My grace. Otherwise, it will be empty, it will only be about you, and it – you – will fail. Success by the world’s standards is always ultimate failure. Only My glory is true success.
Please, please, My dear child. Keep your eyes, ears, heart, mind, feet, soul, strength, spirit, all of you, every moment, unceasingly, upon Me. It’s My work. Let Me do it. You just trust and obey and be always open and ready for My Word, My direction, My empowerment, My grace.
(Amen. Thank You, Lord.)
Date: July 29, 2005